Saturday, May 27, 2006

I got another hair cut. I love it. I love having short hair. I don't know why I was so afraid of it for so long. Guess I had it drilled into me that I would somehow not be my own self if I cut off my hair, that, and men wouldn't like me as much. Not like they take much of an interest in me anyway... so, there. Though, the butcher that I buy Lily's bones from seems to notice it (my hair) and me... though I can't exactly see myself taking up with a high school educated butcher's assistant who likes WWE anytime soon... (mostly it's the WWE that bugs me) ...like, well, ever, so he can appreciate away, I guess.

There are officially less than two weeks before I leave for Argentina to visit Mike. This last week was hellish, but it will be worth it. I worked and worked and worked (almost 60 hours in ack, four days... how was that possible??). The kiddies out at the dorm are graduated, Violet is walking, Lily was vacationing at mom's, and I didn't get nearly enough sleep.

Today I went to a BBQ at my friend Paul's, and spent some quality time with my fellow master's edu. students (and Brandon, Jed and Erin's baby). Wanted to talk about my own personal baby scare the whole time, and how quick I was to just think about getting rid of it (but didn't talk about it... not actually all that much of a big deal to me, but I think some people would have thought that was a little bit too much information about me)... obviously, I'm still too young to have my own kids. Though, I do have the five-year-plan that ends with me and a baby, with, or sans a man. I know I can do it by myself... it will be hard, but I made it okay. I think I can be supermom just like my mom and be at least twice as happy about it. :)

There's lots of drama in the existing monogamous relationships that my friends have, and for some reason, all the unsureness makes me want to talk to Elliot... odd. I sent him an email. It's only 3am where he is... don't think he'd like to be awakened by some random romantic rant, even if it is me on the other end of the international call...

Well, I must turn in. I'm exhausted... and headed off to church tomorrow... yes, church. Check it out! My new Church!